Friday, November 18, 2011

i owe my baby $50 already

yes, you read that correctly. i owe my baby $50 already and she's not even born yet!

i was just looking in my wallet and saw that i have three dollars cash. that's a rare occurrence - seeing cash in my wallet. many of you already know this about me, i rarely ever carry cash on me. i mainly just use my debit card to pay for the things i need on a daily basis. works for me. i don't like being bothered by having to get cash out of an ATM or what-have-you.

i guess it was a couple weeks ago now - my grand parents were up from florida and mike and i went to see them at my aunts house. my mom-mom gave me two things for baby lillian; a wonderful hand-knitted blanket and $50 cash.

now, giving cash as a gift is something of a vietnamese tradition for many occasions (actually many asian societies do this - not just the vietnamese). and more often than not, they give it to you in a little red envelope that is adorned with intricate asian art as seen in the photos below.


you can also read more about red envelope gift giving at this wiki page, if you are interested: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Red_envelope

on this particular day, mom-mom didn't have any little red envelopes with her to put lillian's gift in, and i could tell she was bothered by this. understandably so, i guess... but i am not going to go in to details for why she was upset. though you might be able to formulate your own guess after reading the wiki page at the link above. be it as it may, i told her it was okay as i put the cash in my wallet. i assured her that mike and i would put it to good use for lillian... probably by depositing it in to some sort of account that we will eventually open for her for when she is older. something like that anyway. and i also told myself that i was not to touch it!!!!!!

well - wouldn't ya know - i spent it! i left it in my wallet longer than i should have. one day i needed cash and that $50 was there. neatly tucked away in my wallet. i used it :-/ i know. shame on me. now i owe lil' lill' $50.

after reading that wiki page, i'm sort of glad it wasn't given to me in a little red envelope. if it was, i'm certain i would be in for some serious bad luck. i just know it. but since there was no red envelope, i'm hoping that null and voids the whole "good luck" part of the asian tradition of red envelope gift giving. i guess i can sort of chuck this up to me being a silly american. a born and raised mixed race that never quite fully understood, till now, the whole tradition in the first place... perhaps mom-mom could have better explained that to me some time in the 31 years i've been alive.

whatever the case, i owe my baby $50. stat.

...........jfk..........

Wednesday, November 16, 2011

products i love, continued

yes. im going to continue where i left off with yesterday's blog.

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kleenex ultra soft tissues
there is nothing more i hate than having to blow my nose a thousand times a day when i have a cold. and your average tissue will rip the sh*t out of the skin around your drippy nostrils when you are blowing it that many times a day. of course you have options now-a-days that will solve that problem. like kleenex with lotion and what-have-you. but i hate tissues with lotions and other substances in them. they all make my face break out, not to mention they make me feel like i just slathered my face with a tissue soaked in bacon grease - gross! doesn't matter what brand either - if it has something in it then it's not for me.

but kleenex ultra soft... ha! these bad boys are awesome. they wont rip up your drippy little nose, nor will they cause you to break out. they are as soft as a cloud in heaven and they feel tremendous once they touch your skin. i'm not kidding. when i first put one up to my face, i just about melted they felt so good. i just wanted to rub it all over my face for like 5 minutes. strange. i know. but i am not lying. give 'em a try.


neutrogena moisture shine lip gloss
i have personal issues with using lip glosses, chapstick and lip products... i need a lot of moisture. yes. me. all of me. my hair. my skin. my lips. they all need lots of moisture. i dry out easily. and occasionally i like a little glam-glam on me lippers. i like to feel pretty...

when it comes to my lips i have problems. i cannot just lube them up as i do my body... it's just not the same.

here are the problems i found with the options i had/have out there to deal with dry lips.
  • chapsticks - you think it works great, but you have to apply it every 20 minutes. and if you don't apply it, you are left with terribly chapped and flaky lips. well. maybe that's just me. it makes my lips so much worse.
  • your average lip gloss - does nothing for you except look pretty and shiny. no real moisturizing of the lips and most of them sort of leave my lips slightly more flaky when i am not using them regularly, similar to what chapsticks do to me.
  • lipstick - i'm referring to the kinds that claim they moisturize. they leave a strange feeling/residue on your lips. not to mention if you don't reapply often enough, you look silly sporting the remnants of a lipstick. i don't need to look that pretty all day anyways... i like things that are lower maintenance. and. i still get the strange flaky thing going on with my lips. chapped and flaky lips are the worst!

the common denominating problem with most lip products for me is the flakiness. i don't know what really causes it. its different from chapped lips. chapped lips happen to me from too much sun exposure or cold exposure. the flaky thing happens when; after getting in to a regular routine of using a lip product, and if i happen to stop for a day or two, i get flaky lips. ugh.

so anyway, one day while perusing the cosmetic isle of our local grocery store i came across neutrogena's moisture shine lip glosses. i needed a gloss, and i like neutrogena's brand, so i bought one. can't hurt to give it a shot... i love it!! the product line offers a variety of colors and tints - most of which are just enough to add glam-glam to my look. and when they start to wear off you just look normal. no remnants or residues or need to reapply throughout the day if you don't want to. and the big winner winner chicken dinner deal breaker for me, they don't leave my lips flaky if i happen to not use it for a day or two.

buy it. try it. love it.

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ahhhh ok. ok. no more products. i'm getting too chatty. though there was one more product i wanted to talk about... real quick. i'll give you a picture and product name at least.

listerine whitening pre-brush rinse
this stuff totally works. just be sure you buy the bottle labeled as original, not the other whitening rinses that listerine offers. the others are bogus. trust me. i've tried them and they do not whiten. well. maybe they do. but they are no where near as good as the original.





..........jfk.........

Tuesday, November 15, 2011

products that i love

i was sitting here at my desk, bored as usual, when i realized i haven't blogged in a while again. sorry. that is what this whole blog was created for - to fill up my bored moments with something to do.

time to blog! but what to blog about? i sat here for a bit and contemplated what i could blog about... anything really. it wasn't supposed to matter. i was supposed to just blog my brains away without a care. here are some of the things that crossed my mind.

pregnancy?
nah. i wanted to try to keep that as separate from my blogging as i do my facebook profile. which is why i created it's own special group page to bombard with crap about me being pregnant. the occasional post and blog entry is all i want to see on here...

how bored i am?
nah. that gets old and boring after a while.

penn state drama?
nah. i wouldn't even know where to begin with that. plus im a little late to the game - everyone and their mother has already blogged, tweeted and posted their feelings on it. why share mine?

thanksgiving?
not going there right now... it will all get figured out in the end. gotta love family.

life, love and the pursuit of happiness?
i already do that little bits at a time here and there. but now is not the time.

...anyway. as i continued contemplating today's topic, i realized my armpits are nice and dry. i have drysol to thank for that. wonderful, fantastic, awesome drysol. then i realized what i'm going to blog about; my favorite products! not all of them. don't worry. but i will go through a select few that i just cannot live without.

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i will start with drysol!
i never used to sweat much back in the day. but as i got older i started to sweat like a normal person. then in recent years i began to sweat at a disgusting and alarming rate. mostly my underarms... started to notice, that no matter how cold or hot i actually felt, my armpits were always sweating. i would get dressed in the mornings and 5 minutes later i would have already dampened my shirt to a point where it was noticeable to those around me. how embarrassing!!

i tried a lot of antiperspirants. women's. men's. all natural. baking soda based. clinical strength... all of it. finally i went to my doctor. well, no. i didn't go to my doctor specifically for my pit problem. i was already at the doctor for a checkup or something and i decided to take that opportunity to talk about my sweaty pits. something had to be done. she recommended drysol. it's the best! in the beginning, i was to apply it every two days at night before bed and thoroughly wash my pits the next day. let me tell you. this stuff burned like a mo-fo. but sure enough, i wasn't sweating. like, right off the bat! this sh*t works. i'm at a point now where i only have to apply it once every three weeks or so. or whenever i notice my pits are getting a little dampy-damp. it's glorious. no more sweat for me :-) and if you have any questions about drysol just ask me and i will share my thoughts, opinions, feelings and knowledge on it.

oh yeah. and i don't have to use any deodorant at all anymore - as long as i keep up with my drysol treatments and not let myself get damyp-damp. it's weird how armpits work... it's not the actual sweat that causes you to smell. although it plays a vital role in armpit odor. its actually a result of a combination of sweat and bacteria that is found in many of our armpits. read more here. so if you don't sweat and you wash your pits everyday, you shouldn't smell and therefore shouldn't need deodorant.

next up - exposed skincare system.
throughout much of my life i have battled with significant outbreaks of moderate to bad acne. it started when i was in 5th or 6th grade... and when i was in high school, i had tried acne prescriptions like retin a, a harsh topical, and tetracycline, an oral antibiotic. not to mention every over the counter acne cream/treatment, and nothing really got rid of it. they all just sort of tamed it a little. but that was about it. as i got older the breakouts seemed to be less severe and less frequent and somewhat more manageable. but they never quite stopped and i started to develop acne on places other than my face, like my chest and back. fun times... sure is hard to feel pretty with acne everywhere...

anyway. it was about 4 years ago when my bff was set to get married and my lovely back acne (b'acne) was flaring up and looking quite lovely as usual. and for her wedding we had these pretty jcrew dresses that had a lovely v-back cut that kindly exposed a good portion of my not-so-pretty b'acne. i had to do something. anything.

it was time to seek yet another way out of my acne problem. during my internet searches i recalled all the proactive infomercials i had seen on tv that advertised beautiful skin for real people. so good, even celebrities were using it. no better place to start than where a celebrity has found success, right? whatever. i decided to look in to it more. while researching proactive and it's results i found myself checking out a website that compared a handful of acne treatments to each other. proactive was one, exposed skincare was another and i cannot recall the rest, but there was something like the "top 5 acne treatments" listed. out of all of them, i liked what i saw in exposed skincare compared to the rest. so i went with it and ordered my first kit.

love. love. love this stuff. it worked fast and has not yet failed me in my years of using it. i will always have breakouts. that's just the way it's going to be. but my acne is more under control than ever. and i cannot complain about that. something is better than nothing.

if you have acne, you have to give this stuff a try.

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i have other products that i want to blog about, but its the end of the day and i need to wrap this up. maybe i will continue tomorrow.

........jfk.......

Wednesday, November 9, 2011

mindless and unnecessary eating



i hear it's common for a lot of people to mindlessly and unnecessarily eat when bored, sad or depressed... not me though. when i am bored i like to drink coffee and i find that i have no appetite, and am often repulsed by food, when i am sad or depressed. ** side note - the terms sad and depressed are not interchangeable vocabulary. they each have notable differences in their definitions and should not be confused with one another**

so, when do i mindlessly and unnecessarily eat? because i do. i am not free of the guilt from stuffing my face full of food for the wrong reason(s). i do it when i am mad, angry or infuriated. i realized this behavior a short time ago while working here, at my current job. i wont lie - i often get angered at things around this place. and every time, i end up furiously devouring my lunch while still wanting more when its all gone. it's unnerving and totally irrational how much i want to eat when i am angry. this place must really bring it out of me...


Friday, November 4, 2011

i just don't understand

there are some things in this world that i just don't understand. let's review a few, shall we?

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  1. waiting at the doctors office
    it seems, no matter how early you show up to a doctor's appointment, you always have to wait... always. and most of the time it seems that you waiting past the actual time of your appointment. every doctor's office should have a slogan. here's a good one, "early, on time or late? you still wait!"

  2. pregnant ladies and being photographed with guns
    the pictures say it all - or nothing about what is going on.


  3. pregnant ladies being photographed completely nude
    this covers a very large spectrum of pregnant and nude ladies. to some degree, i understand why this happens. but then i see things like the first two photos... seriously?! and the last photo, while artistic and tasteful, still bothers me... i guess i am just not comfortable with that much nudity. and why does the man have to be in there and naked as well?


  4. the obligatory act of giving gifts
    i think i've sort of mentioned this before - maybe not. but why do most people feel obligated to get/give gifts to people for all occasions, whether special or not? obviously i understand the feeling of obligation for birthdays, weddings, babies and certain holidays. but truthfully, i don't feel the need to receive gifts for most of those occasions anymore, so i don't think anyone should feel the need to give me one either. no more gifts for jessica - you're all off the hook! i'm happy with you just mentioning a simple "happy" this or "congratulations" that. besides, if you have to ask me what i want for my birthday, a holiday or a celebration then i don't want a gift. i loath telling people what to buy me for that stuff. it's not out of spite... but if you haven't heard me talk about needing or wanting anything lately then i'm probably fine. you're best bet is to keep your ears and eyes open during conversations with me to see if there might be anything you can get me.

    sorry about the mini rant there. but does all that make sense? my bff beth knows exactly where i am coming from with that one.

  5. people that wont grow up and/or be the better person in some situations
    enough said.

  6. animal abuse/neglect/cruelty
    why did you get an animal in the first place?

  7. conservatives
    seriously, where did they come from?

  8. 100% blind faith - in anything
    i want to believe blindly in some things. but its hard for me. i always find myself wanting proof.

  9. honor killings
    if you don't know what i am talking about, google it or read any one of these articles:
    http://news.nationalgeographic.com/news/2002/02/0212_020212_honorkilling.html
    http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Honor_killing
    http://www.gendercide.org/case_honour.html
    blows my mind.

  10. people's need to share their opinion(s) while also thinking that it is the be all, end all to life's questions
    if i didn't ask you what your opinion was then basically i don't want your opinion. especially if you are going to be pushy about it. don't force your yackity-yack-smack on me - shut your trap! do you need me to further explain what i am saying? okay. what i am trying to say is, when i want your opinion - which is just what it is, an opinion - i will ask you for it.
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i'm done. have a nice weekend!

...........jfk...........

Wednesday, November 2, 2011

the baby room part 3 - coming together

two things that were important to me when putting together the baby room and it's theme:

1. not overtly gearing the color(s) to either gender, which means no all-pink or all-blue stuff. truthfully, i didn't even want to touch either color - at all. like, i know that a splash of pink or blue can look really nice with browns and tans while at the same time not being in-your-face girlish or boyish. but i want no part of it. i'm just being head strong. ask mike. he will agree.

2. not having whatever gender neutral theme we did pick be overly babyish or cutesy, even though it is, in fact, a baby room. i am just not in to cute and bubbly things. i have a real issue. and though i know it is for a cute and bubbly baby, i still cannot come to grips with it. you know, i've seen some really nice gender neutral themes out there. jungle animals. zoo animals. woodland animals. they all still push the limits of being too cutesy for me. i mean, i like them and all, but they are just not for me. i was dead set on having a baby room that was both baby and adult in nature.

okay okay - i'm sure you are ready to see pictures of what the room looks like right now. i've probably built it up so much in your minds that you are in for a massive anticlimactic shock. if that happens, i'm sorry. :-/

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...what the room looked like before the decals were put up...



...decals up...



...my handy-made and framed artwork telling our story...



...closer shot - frame one...


...closer shot - frame two...


...closer shot - frame three...



...the handmade bird mobile that came all the way from sweden...



...don't you just love it...

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well. i don't know exactly how much i may have let you down. but i assure you that the room looks much more appealing in person.

a lot of thought, time and effort has gone in to this baby room so far and i am still quite excited and slightly proud that we have been able to put together a theme and baby room that is both baby and adult in nature.

best part of all, its not even done yet. this room is going to get even better as we near the end of my pregnancy. i can't wait till its 100% complete and filled with all the goodies that lillian might get from the baby shower. oh yeah. and little lillian herself! she'll be the best part of that room for sure...

i love it!

.............jfk.............

the baby room part 2 - picking a theme

it was some time between early - mid september. and although i'm not exactly sure what day of the week it was, i feel like it was a tuesday or a thursday. whichever day it was, i came home from a long and boring day at work and i was eager to sit down with mike and talk about a theme for the baby room. you see, earlier that morning as i was meandering around the unfinished baby room when i had an idea pop in to my head. and throughout the day this idea evolved in to a sold theme for the baby room and i was ubber supper dupper excited about it...

so, as i sat down beside mike and began to mention that i had a theme for the baby room, mike said he also had a theme... uh oh... two themes, one baby room.

some luck. what are the chances that we both had a sort of "ahh ha" moment as to what our theme for the baby room could be both in the same day? now, if you know mike and i, you'll know we have totally opposite taste in just about everything. **side note: opposites do attract. mike and i are some sort of proof.** poor mike. he looked at me and i could see that he just sort of gave up his theme. basically, before we even shared with each other what our theme was, he said that his theme didn't matter since i had one of my own and that i could do whatever i had in mind. now i felt bad. but i was so absorbed with my theme that i was secretly exuberant that he was going to let me do my theme... maybe he could see how excited i was about it even before i shared it. maybe he couldn't. whatever the case, at that point neither one of us really wanted to share our theme. but we did.

mine was birds and his was monkeys. we were both trying to think of something that was gender neutral... animals are a safe bet. both would have made great themes and truthfully, it all depends on how you apply it really. mike had been on some websites that day and seen some really neat decals of monkeys on one of them. it gave him an idea for a really good theme. i had sort of done the same thing that morning; while meandering around the baby room, thinking about what to do in there, i saw the bird cage from our wedding (see image below - we used it to collect the gift cards from guests) which sparked a whirlwind of ideas in my head.



and that was that! i had my theme. and in case you haven't picked up on which theme we are moving forward with; birds or monkeys? we are going with birds. i was too excited about it to not take mike up on his offer to let me go ahead and do it. he loves me...

at first, i wanted to do a sort of antique type of bird theme. using bird prints and posters with accents of victorian patterns and lace. what follows are a few images that illustrate the sort of things i was seeing in my head.

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i felt that this could pass as gender neutral as long as i took it easy on the lace and victorian stuff. i loved it! but i sort of felt it was too much and not right for a baby. might be better suited for an adult... plus, i think mike would have looked at me with the stink eye of a thousand tigers, knowing that this was not baby room material, much less something he would even like. so, throughout the day it morphed and evolved into something more friendly and easily workable in to a baby room theme.

i had decided to move away from the whole antique and victorian feel and more towards a solid black silhouetted-bird type of theme. the main source of decor would be wall decals and framed artwork by myself. i could custom design fabulous things and have them produced through one of the many great sites i use online, or i could even buy straight up already made things somewhere... the possibilities were endless. here are a few images to show you what i was now gearing up for.

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and actually, that first image is of a set of wall decals that you can find at target.com. originally, i wanted to custom design a bunch of stuff. but then i saw those decals at target.com and decided that they will do just fine. so i got some, courtesy of my friend lori petsu!

and that is the story of how the theme of the baby room came to be - birds!

those decals, along with some handy-made artwork that i framed, the dark wood furniture purchased online and from ikea, a handful of other home decor and accents and our lovely paint job (that came after we picked this theme) - the baby room is lookin' pretty nice. just you wait and see!

...............jfk..............

the baby room part 1: preparation

if you know me, you know i like to get sh*t done a.s.a.p. if at all possible. i don't like to wait till later when things can be done now/in the present. so, with the impending arrival of our little human, we got started on the baby room quite early.

it all started back in august... one day i decided i was going to do some online research. just "looking" type of thing. the next thing i knew, i was ordering a crib and changing table and wondering what my next move was going to be - go figure. below is a picture i mike putting the crib together.



after that move, my brain wouldn't stop thinking about the rest of the furniture that was going to go in that room. i was online - a lot - looking for dressers and book shelves and decorations and themes. i started to stress out. i didn't have a theme. and even though i had a million and one ideas i could go with, none were clicking or sticking. i didn't like the things i saw online nor did i want to spend the money on the stuff i was seeing online. i was losing it. in the mean time, unbeknownst to me, mike was also thinking about things. like other things we should do to prepare the room itself, not just furniture and material decorations...

eventually things started to fall in to place. as mike and i agreed that we wanted all dark furniture and i remembered that ikea is fabulously affordable and i could get the dresser there, among other things. the key thing i needed to remember was that you don't have to buy all your furniture at one place. and it doesn't all have to be from the same product line. as long as it looks like it matches and/or goes together well enough, who cares?! well. i guess some would care. snarky snobs. but i think the stuff i got online and at ikea goes nice together even though they weren't intended to. so there!

oh. yeah. we also came up with a theme... each... but that's another post that will follow shortly.

let's look at some pictures of the progression of the preparation of the baby room. after purchasing and assembling the crib and changing table, and agreeing on a theme we went ahead and picked out some paint colors at lowe's and started really getting the room started.

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**be sure to click on the images to see the larger view**


our first step in painting: pull about and move everything away from and start edging out the walls. it's hard to tell in the pictures above, but the main wall color was some variation white; a more creamy and warm shade of white than normal. mike calls it a pale yellow... you can sort of see it in that last picture - sort of. and on to the next step...


taping. mike suggested, and i agreed, that a colored stripe about halfway up the wall running around the whole room would be nice. mike's first suggestion was for it to be a pale orange - it's what he envisioned in the theme he wanted. when we got to lowe's and started checking out actual colors, we ended up picking out a sort of buttery yellow that could be described as being more on the orangey side.



it's a nice color. and although we both agree that we could have gone a shade or two lighter, we like it.

...............jfk..............